Change of Heart?

Last night, my good friend lalabelle insisted that I tell her what happened when Badong came over to 4103, so I did as requested. Let me share...

... the idea that there might have been a change of heart on my side... "somehow."

Okay, so di ba nga, after his "meeting" at the now defunct Domestic Airport [hindi na nga ako naki-argue nga!] he went straight to NAIA Terminal II to pick up mommy dear who was due to arrive at 10am. *Wait... before that... he texted me at 8am sakto: "Anak, san ka na ba? D2 na ako airport." So I called him and told him that I just woke up and couldn't make it on time anymore. [Actually pa-utot ko nga lang yung makikipagkita ako ng 8am sa kanya d ba, kaya nga kumindat pa ako kay Ed. Nalilito ka? Balikan mo yung isang blog ko... bwehehe...]

I wasn't surprised na, when he called me at 11am to ask for directions on how to visit 4103. Well pano ba idetalye ito... nagiging "kinda" emotional ako. lol...

Nag text ako sa kanya, sabi ko dito na sila mag lunch. Pumayag naman. So ang lalabelle niyo, nag order sa Max's Delivery: pinakbet (type nila pareho), daing-na-bangus (paborito ni mamita), sinigang na hipon sa sampaloc (type ni Badong yung shrimp), and fresh lumpiang ubod (paborita ni mamita).

So pagdating nila dito, syempre ano pa! Eh di pagsara ko pa lang ng gate eh nagbangayan ulit ang mga retarded. (Bad bad bad). Kesyo ganito kesyo ganyan. Di ko naintindihan ang pinag-aawayan kasi mega ignore nalang ako. Tsaka dahil takot sila sa akin... d talaga nila pinaparinig na nag-aaway sila. Basta parang tungkol sa gahiganteng maleta chenelou yun! hihi.

Pagpasok ni Badong sa munti kong tahanan... bininyagan kaagad ang trono ko. YES! Ang trono ko, kasi kina-career niya ang Edmark! (http://www.edmarker.com/) [In fairness kay Uncle Dong, effective nga ito... magiging best friend mo ang trono (idea courtesy of Balong).

Eh... walang masyadong exciting na story kasi. As in wala lang. Pero nung kumakain kami... nagtanong siya kung magkano daw yung delivery. Sabi ko "PHP100+ yung isda." (Ayoko sabihin na inabot ako ng PHP700+ kasi...) O tapos sabi niya, "...Ibig ko sabihin, magkano lahat?" So sabi ko nga "700+" Aba ang Badong, halos mabulunan, sabi niya... "...Aba... mura lang pala..." Dat dat dat. Sabi ko, "Ok lang yan, kasi paminsan-minsan lang naman kayo dito." Ayan eh di kain-kain. Maya-maya after, natulog na. 4 solid hours! So ang sabi naman ni mamita, baka napuyat daw. Sabi ko "Natural! Humataw yan kagabi habang wala ka pa!" Dat dat dat. Nakatulog na din si mamita.

Boooring... Booooring for an event-seeker like me! O eto na... Actually ang kwento ko talaga is how I felt about seeing him. Well, I wanted to believe it was nothing. I wanted to keep believing that he no longer had an impact on me. I wanted to be "manhid" and treat the encounter as a casual event - nothing special. But as soon as they left, I felt an outpour of mixed emotions. I was crying while closing the gate. I couldn't understand what I felt. I wanted it to be hatred, but no. It was something else.

I guess my mind kept on making me believe that I was mad at him, and that he was supposed to be ignored. But my subconscious "missed" him. Deep inside, I think I was really glad to see him. Kasi nga, as I have said, the last time we spoke was in June pa, and he was "Badong a.k.a Joseph a.k.a Joe" that time, not my Daddy. Change of heart, maybe? Don't know. I miss Daddy... not Badong, not Joe, not Joseph. I miss my Daddy Ben.

I cried again at night when Ed arrived from the office. I told him how I felt. He simply said. "...kahit ano pang manygyari, he's still your daddy."